just be friends..

JUST BE FRIENDS

Just be friends All we gotta do Just be friends
It’s time to say goodbye Just be friends
All we gotta do Just be friends
Just be friends
Just be friends…

Ukandan da Kinou no asa hayaku ni
Wareta GURASU Kaki atsumeru youna
Kore wa ittai nandarou Kitta yubi karashitataru shizuku
Bokura wa konna koto Shitakatta no kana

Wakatteta yo Kokoro no okusoko de wa
Motto mo tsurai Sentaku ga BESUTO
Sore wo kobamujiko ai to Kekkajika douchaku no kurikaeshi
Boku wa itsu ni nareba Ieru no kana

Yuruyaka ni kuchite yuku Kono sekai de
Agaku boku no yui itsu no katsuro Iro aseta kimi no
Hohoemi kizande Sen wo nuita

Koe wo karashite sakenda Hankyou zankyou
Munashiku hibiku Hazusareta kusari no
Sono saki wa nani hitotsu
Nokotteyashinai kedo Futari wo kasaneteta guuzen

Anten tansen Hakanaku chiji ni
Shosen konna mono sa Tsubuyaita
Kareta hoho ni tsutau Dare ka no namida

All we gotta do Just be friends
It’s time to say goodbye Just be friends
All we gotta do Just be friends
Just be friends Just be friends…

Kizuitanda Kinou no naidan yoru ni
Ochita kaben Hiroi ageta toshite
Mata saki modoru koto wa nai Sou te no hira no ue no chisai sana shi
Bokura no jikan wa Tomatta mama

Omoi dasu yo Hajimete atta kisetsu wo
Kimi no yasashiku Hohoemu kao wo
Ima wo kako ni oshiyatte Futari kizutsuku Kagiri kizutsuita
Bokura no kokoro wa Toge darake da

Omokuru shiku tsuzuku Kono kankei de
Kanashii hodo Kawaranai kokoro
Aishiteru no ni Hanare gatai no ni
Boku ga iwanakya

Kokoro ni doshaburi no ame ga Bouzen shouzen
Shikai mo kemuru Kakugo shiteta hazu no
Sono itami Soredemo tsurakareru kono karada
Futari wo tsunaideta kizuna Hokorobi hodoke

Nichijou ni kieteku Sayonara aishita hito
Kokomade da Mou furimukanaide
Aruki dasunda

Ichido dake, Ichido dake
Negai ga kanau no naraba Nando demo
Umare kawatte Ano hi no kimi ni
Ai ni iku yo

Koe wo karashite sakenda Hankyou zankyou
Munashiku hibiku Hazusareta kusuri no
Sono saki wa nani hitotsu
Nokotteyashinai kedo Futari wo tsunaideta kizuna

Hokorobi hodoke Nichijou ni kieteku
Sayonara aishita hito Kokomade da
Mou furimukanaide Aruki dasunda
Kore de oshimai sa

Just be friends All we gotta do Just be friends
It’s time to say goodbye Just be friends
All we gotta do Just be friends
Just be friends
Just be friends…

English Translation

Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends It’s time to say goodbye
Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends Just be friends…

It came to mind in the early morning yesterday
As if I gathered broken pieces of glass

What the heck is this? Drips from my cut finger
Is this what we really hoped for?

I knew it at the bottom of my heart, the hardest choice would be the best
My self-love refuses it and repeats self-contradiction
When can I tell it to you?

In the slowly decaying world, I’m struggling but it’s the only way
Carving your faded smiles, I pulled out the plug

I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
Nothing is left at the end of the unchained me
Coincidences that sticked us degenerates into the dark and are broken in pieces
“No matter what we do, life is just like that” I mumbled
Somebody’s tears flow down the dried cheeks

All we gotta do　Just be friends
It’s time to say goodbye Just be friends
All we gotta do　Just be friends
Just be friends Just be friends…

Yesterday a tranquil night made me realize
It’d be useless to pick up fallen petals

Because it’d never bloom again
It’s tiny but already dead on my palms
Our time stopped long ago

I remember the season we met first and your grace smile
Bringing up old issues, we hurt each other as badly as possible
Our minds are full of thorns

With this continuous dull relationship
Grievously I can’t change my mind
I still love you, I don’t wanna be apart from you, but I have to tell you

It’s raining heavily in my mind, I’m stunned, I’m standing dead, my vision is blurry
Despite my determination, the pain is still penetrating
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it’s over
We have to leave without turning back

Just once, just once, if I could have my wish to come true
I’d be born again and again and go see you on those days

I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
Nothing is left at the end of the unchained me
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it’s over
We have to leave without turning back

It’s all over
 

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Personally, I don’t like this song that much. >_> The lyrics of the song, is just too much.  I don’t like how they always repeat the just be friends part. >_> So much for rubbing it in my face.Anyhow, a friend of mine, Kazuo, arranged a piano version of the song, and it really sounds nice. I like the melody of the song, just not the lyrics please.

Well, I hope somehow you’ll enjoy this, we might have a different pov on this song.

fleeting

the past 3 weeks has been really fun. although right now, i don’t think i am..rather.. satisfied. *sigh

this is the reason why i don’t like to get close to people that much now Dx but i can’t help it i like making friends and all.. but then everything gets all tangled up and i get so distracted with everything and end up messing up again. seriously, i can’t be messing up right now. THE SEMESTER’s ABOUT TO END!!!  Dx

 I NEED FOCUS! 

I read earlier during my devotional that.. if  I don’t focus myself on the task that has been given to me by God (i.e. studies, studies, studies) He will take away the distractions (friends, friends, friends) from me. T_T NOOOO.. And I think it’s starting already… T_T 

Sigh. 

I should pause for a while right now and think things through. I can’t afford more emotional highs that would distract me with the things that I should be doing. 

Suki Dakara

*she walks slowly, staring at his back. just the thought of it made her all fidgety and nervous. 

she stopped.

 he stopped.

he turned.

“suki.”

overflowing…

Life is always uncertain… Cliche much? Yet it’s always been true. You may be busy in school, or moping around because of a heartbreak, complaining how hard life is for you, wallowing in sadness and feeling the weight of the world on your shoulders, or you may be having a good time with friends, or foolishly inlove with someone, or just having no care in the world at all. And out there, in other corners of the earth somebody is dying, or somebody has died and a family is mourning… What then? Should you sympathize with them? Should your life stop going on? Should you stop merry-making? No. I’m not saying that what was forementioned is wrong. It’s your life, you do what you want to do with it. Right? Quoting from a book in the Bible. “Be cheerful and enjoy life while you are young! Do what you want and find pleasure in what you see. But don’t forget God will judge you for everything you do.” Ecclesiastes 11:9

Last Saturday my uncle, a brother of my father passed away. Among 8 siblings, he’s the youngest. He had no family of his own; a bachelor. He lives in the old house where my father and all their other siblings grew up. Everytime I go there for a vacation, me, along with my other cousins would spend the nights there in the old house with our uncle. I remember that he would set up the banig for us to sleep on, then help us where to tie the mosquito net. And sometimes, scare us with stories of the ghost of Lolo and Lola. But, it was altogether fun. I could see that my uncle was really happy to see us having fun there in the old house, even if the place looked so dark and forlorn.

Now, as i look back on those times I can’t help but cry and grip my heart. Losing someone so dear to me was excruciating. All the more when I found outabout how he died and how alone and helpless he might have felt when he was attacked by stroke in his room and the people just found out about it after 3 days. He was brought to the hospital, but died after a few days… I wish I was there… I wish I was beside him. I wish that somehow in his last breath he would remember that we really love him, that I really love him even if distance separated us. But it’s too late. He’s gone now… And all I could do is cry for each time I remember him. Feeling helpless, because I’m far from where my family is right now.. I’m somehow hoping that just this time, I can be with them, and my uncle…

I do not ask that you sympathize with me.. all I’m sating is take every opportunity to show your love for your family. We may say that, “nah, they’re always there”. NO. Life is unpredictable. They may be gone before you know it. And you wish that you could’ve done more to show how much you care for them and how much you love them. Losing someone hurts a lot.. and it hurts more when you know that you still coud have done something for that person, yet was unable to… Regrets and Pain. Things that I couldn’t get rid off in my life. But I don’t blame God nor anyone for that. I guess it’s essential for us Human Beings… What is it like to be human? To experience joy, sadness, suffering, fulfillment, and most of all, love. Do not deprive the people around you of your love. Show it to them, better yet, tell them sincerely that you love them. It’s not just romantic love…because that is just skin-deep from the love that I speak of… The love of God that is manifested in our lives.. When we open ourselves to God, we’re not the only recipients of His love, but we also allow Him to love others through us. This is not talk of religion, but of God and His love sacrifice, Jesus. The Way the Truth and the Life. You think you’ve sacrificed a lot for someone lately? Think again. “There’s no greater love than this than a man who would give his life for a friend.” John 15:3

Our love for our family and the people around us is nothing compared to Jesus’ love for them. If you love them so much then allow them to meet Jesus Christ. The perfector of our love. If you don’t understand what I’m talking about here, then better pick-up the Bible and start reading. If you still can’t, ask people to help you. But most of all, open your heart and mind to God and ask Him to bless you with understanding of His Word, so that you can experience more of His love for you, and me.

I’m sorry if I may have sounded so preachy… but what I speak is the Truth. If you feel empty, or something is missing in your life, or if all else failed… then, try Jesus. He might be the one who can only fill up that hole in your heart and life. Believe and have faith. I don’t speak as as a holy person. I’m just like you, a sinner. yet I believe Jesus Christ loves me so much that He died on the cross as an atonement for my sins, (and yours as well) and that He is able to forgive me… only if I ask Him to. (I John 1:9)

And what’s this all got to do with the death of my uncle?
I believe that God loves my uncle so much that in one way or another He used people (my Lolo and Lola, my aunties and uncles, and others) to experience this love, even just for a while.

Now as I wipe the tears from my swollen, puffy eyes, I keep in mind that God truly loves my uncle, that’s why He shortened the suffering my uncle is going through. I will stop crying and start thanking God that despite the sadness of what the situation brings, God knows the best in everything and He loves us. That’s what I believe and I will hold on to that promise. Because of all the promises that are made in this world, only God’s promise is never and cannot be broken.

Uncle Dodong, when I go back to our place there in Villarica, Midsayap, North Cotabato, I won’t be seeing you anymore… I won’t be seeing your balding head, nor your wide shiny forehead (although we all have that in our family). We would not be able to spend time with you in the old house anymore. I won’t be seeing your goofy smile welcoming me when I arrive there.. However, rest assured, I will always remember you. You may think that you never taught me anything, but you did. You taught me how to love our family, despite all the conflicts and problems. No matter how many of these problems may arise, the truth remains that WE ARE A FAMILY. And a family should help and stick up for each and not against each other. So thank you so much dearest uncle. I hope and pray that all of us have really learned this from you…

I love you, will always love you, even beyond death.

See you soon.

Ballet Philippines @ Silliman University

Monday night was truly amazing. The Ballet Philippines’ performance @ The Claire Isabell McGill Luce Auditorium left me hanging on the edge of my seat. My eyes wide-opened, barely blinking, fearing that I might miss a single graceful move by the ballet dancers. It was so amazing. I’ve never been that amazed by anything in my whole life, until last night. Their performance just topped in my list of best performances seen at Luce Auditorium. From their costumes, their facial expressions, the music used in all of the dances, the concept of the dances, the lights, and each step and move of the dancers were wonderful. They’ve done excerpts from Igorot, which was choreographed by Agnes Locsin, excerpts from Ensalada [Mamang Kutsero, Bakya Mo Neneng, Limang Dipang Tao], choreographed by Edna Vida, music by Ryan Cayabyab, Evacuation, choreographed by Augustus Damian III, music score from the movie The Killing Fields, excerpt Gaano Kadalas, choreographed by Tony Fabella, music by John Tan & Willy Cruz from the album Pelikula at Pundakit by the Bolipata Trio (it was actually an piano & violin instrumental of Sana’y Wala ng Wakas which made me misty-eyed for some reason..), Bach Concerto, choreographed by William Carter, Romeo & Juliet, choreographed by Alice Reyes, music by Sergei Prokofiev, and last but not the least, Te Deum choreographed by Denisa Reyes, music by Georges Bizet.

I was just stunned. And I’m so proud to have seen a live performance. To be a ballerina; that was my childhood dream, but, after seeing that performance,  I’m already okay not to become one. (and i think it would be too late to learn it now, right? or maybe not. xD) 

I hope there would be more performances like this in the future. 

 for more info on Ballet Philippines, just visit their official site: http://balletphilippines.org/

the art of letting go

one of the reasons why people get so sentimental…it’s because memories are the only things that don’t change…when everything else does… there are things in life that you cant hold on forever, no matter how much you fight for it…

sometimes destiny isn’t always good, it becomes playful… when you meet someone you learned to love, you thought it was destiny who made your paths cross… but what if making your paths cross is just a part of the game that the playful destiny create? making you realize in the end that the person you though that was destined for you wasn’t really meant to stay… but only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you’ve already fallen..

you can never own something that was never yours… so lets stop gripping on things we expect to last forever…

nothing lasts forever.

forever is a lie.

everything is transitory.

so while you have something in your hand, put in mind that its just borrowed… so that someday when its gone, it wont take you eternity just to let it go…

when your feelings get strong for someone, its always wise to stop for a while and give you heart a time to breathe… a time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion… because the saddest thing that can happen is when one fall in love while the other wants nothing more than friendship…

love can sometimes be magic…

but magic can sometimes be an illusion…

there are times when I wish that I was limited to certain emotions… so that i’ll never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed, and never get my fragile heart broken… but the same thing means that ill never know how it feels to love and be loved in return… the thought of it kind of scares me… to have a heart that’s whole but numb… or a heart that’s broken but real…

someday we’ll all be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry, and fight… maybe when that time comes, we’ll be laughing at our old dumb selves… realizing how stupid we were to stand up for things we knew weren’t really meant for us…

but I guess learning takes time, and mistakes make one’s journey fun…

life is what we make it…

love makes the world go round…

so let’s live, love, and take whatever pain it brings…

though its hard to wait around for something that I know will never happen…

its harder to stop when I know it’s everything i’ve always wanted…

so where do you learn the art of letting go?

New Year

Though it’s a bit late, Happy New Year! Yeah. To me, and everybody else. I hope it’ll be indeed a new year. 

More wise decisions. Be less impulsive. Save money. Dx

Be more effective. Be more obedient. Dx

Just one of tyhose things that I hope I could fulfill this year.

And yeah, another thing, to GROW UP.

Christmas Eve

Here I am, in the balcony outside the hotel. My mom, dad and my Kuya Tyronner are busy watching TV inside. I wanted to go for a swim but the pool is just until 8pm. It’s so boring here. I thought I was going to have a lot of fun tonight. When I heard that we’ll be staying in a hotel for Christmas, I was ecstatic, and then when we arrived here this morning … ~_~ Yeah, I know.. Most of the people are in their own homes, with their family, preparing Noche Buena and just being with each other as a whole family.. I really can’t blame the season why my Kuya Kyle is not with us. Goldilocks doesn’t do holidays, they earn more during holidays, especially Christmas. But I just miss those times, like we would prepare for the Noche Buena and just have fun at home. And yes, right now, we’re in the hotel, and i’m singling out here because I have nothing else to do. Anyhowm it’s not about me in this season.. So, still… A Merry Christmas to everyone…

Christmas Break

Ahh..  Few days more and I’ll be home. Yes. I’m planning to have a kick-off start of my vacation this Saturday when I arrive in CDO because in the next few days, I will be killing myself practicing piano and preparing for the recital next month. And, I want to spend time with my family. Maybe I won’t be doing ‘laags’ this break. Just maybe.. Haha. I hope no one tempts me though. xD Maybe I’ll just go out twice or thrice, for the HS reunion, which I’m still not sure if it it’ll push through and if it does, I might not go. But I’m still thinking and rethinking.. Hehe. And maybe a few house raids and then that’s it. I’m going to lock myself up in my room and practice.

Messiah

We’re doing Handel’s Messiah on the 5th of December. I’m so happy to be a part of it, plus having Ma’am Isabel Dimaya-Vista to conduct us. Definitely a great honor.

bored

it’s one of those times that you get bored with social networking sites. i went back blogging cause i got bored facebooking. well there are still fun apps to waste my time with but then over all i got bored.there’s nothing i do online now unlike those days.. there was so much to do and so much to explore. i guess im not as inquisitive now as i was before. maybe. and i don’t have much the luxury of time to spend in front of the pc going online. although recently i did some anime + jdrama marathon using my friend’s laptop. i missed that. haha.  

anyhow, i went out last night with my kabSi’s + a classmate. never had that much fun since last semester. it’s a good thing to have friends nearby.

sigh.

caregiver

good consistent habits, don’t die hard

yes, i am trying to get into the habit of always going to the library every after lunch before my math11 which is at 3pm. i don’t care what i’ll do with the 2 hours, but most probably do homework, and study.. but right now i’m in the cyberlib. blogging. haha. it’s just that i don’t want to waste my time away staying in the boarding house/dorm(?!). for sure that would make me lazy. and i don’t want that for this semester, especially when i’m planning to get HIGH grades so as to avail the scholarship for next year. HOORAY! plus, i am really busy, i’ve got lots of things going on. i enrolled a special class for voice. and, i’ve committed again as a student leader in PSALM. and God help me, I’d be effective and be able to grow spiritually ,at the same time balance my studies with the student ministry. another thing im planning for this semester is to join the campus ambassadors. i know the screening is tough.. i’m hoping i could get in but i’m aso ready to accept if i won’t make it. haha. but i know i need to be positive about it, although i am hesitant beacuse of my full schedule.. come what may, and what God-wills.

2nd semester

i love the 2nd semester. so many holidays.. and vacation! Christmas! so, classes already started and i already have the piano pieces i’ll be working on in this semester.. i really pray that i can make it up this semester. i totally messed up the last time. but hey, i i passed. thank God. so now, i have 5 minors and 5 music sciences including my piano, a total of 10 subjects, all in all 28 units. whew. i hope i could do better this semester.. 

Keep Holding On.

I’ve been watching this wonderful TV series Glee. And i’m loving it so much. Especially the episode I recently watched. Episode 7. I love the character developments, and yes, oh yes, the music especially.. I am in awe on their selections of songs and how they knit it together with the story.  I recommend that you guys really watch it. This is one of the songs that they sang there, of course with their own version. I never thought this was one of Avril’s songs.  The lyrics and the message of the song is really nice.

This goes out to all of my friends out there… I love you guys.

Glee’s version of Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne.

You’re not alone
Together we stand
I’ll be by your side, you know I’ll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There’s no place to go
You know I won’t give in
No I won’t give in

(chorus)Keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Just stay strong
‘Cause you know I’m here for you, I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it’s too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend,
I’ll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah! (chorus)

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing’s gonna change, nothing’s gonna change destiny
Whatever’s meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah! (chorus)

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da
(chorus)

Keep holding on…
Keep holding on

There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through

Things I used to love to do