This. Writing. Blogging. Although most of the posts in my previous blogs are about my daily, mundane life I love doing that. Being able to just write anything at whim, or the thoughts that I just coudn’t say to any of the people I’m with. It’s sad actually.. I live in a different place now, with different people. It’s been 5 months. Before I was here, it came upon my mind that everything would be just wonderful as I thought it would be. But I guess I was wrong. No, this is not one of those posts that shouts I’m homesick! I want to go home! It’s just that… don’t trust much as I do before. I hate to say this, but because of what happened  before I am scared that it will again happen to me. I hate blaming my past, because what I have is now. And the decisions that I have and make now are the things that matters most. Now. And I have a lot of things I want to do. I want to interact with people, I love to teach kids and serve God again… And I don’t know how I’ll be able to do that again.. here, in this place. It will be like starting from scratch… But somehow, it’s a good thing. That will be a challenge for me now..  I hope I’d make it. Because it’s been really boring out here… The happiness that I feel when I’m with some people, is so different with the joy that fills my heart when I’m with friends who shares the same goal as I am.. and that is serving God with everything that we have. I’m not saying that I don’t want to be with those people that don’t share this thing with me.. i know one way or another they have thought of that.. and something is just stopping them..so they just push the thought aside.. but we all know that , that is what matters most.. everything in this world will just come to pass..and it’s wise to hold on to the One that will stay forever…